Brand New

Just like a brand new baby brings a promise of new life, new adventures and fresh start… so does the beginning of a brand new year.

So perhaps its time for me to reflect a little? I have come to learn {and begrundglinly accept} a fact about myself…. I just can’t do it all. And I really hate to admit that.

I’d like to say that I make 100% organic healthy home-cooked meals every night, with my floors and baseboards sparkling clean, with happy, rested children who have my undivided attention, and all the time in the world to keep the house running, my finances and paperwork organized, and be the best nurse, mom, wife, friend and photographer I can be…  but alas ~ I can’t.

Oh- and somehow find time to work out and keep myself running in a healthy, balanced manner.  Simple- eh?

So this is it.  This will be my year.  I am turning 30, and it’s time to finally accept that my mind and body cannot run in a million different directions and still thrive on only 3 hours of sleep like it once did in my college days. I used to have regular ol’ picnics with my kids without thinking to myself, “I should be organizing my files right now” or “I should really take a few pictures of this because I’d love to write a blog post about this….” .  I used to just enjoy being IN the moment. And that’s exactly what I intend to get back to doing once again. Which means, I’ll be taking less sessions this year, and probably blogging a little less as well. I still intend on continuing my passion for photography, but I’ll just be limiting myself and learning to set healthy limits and schedules for myself. I want to bring photography back to the reason why I first picked up a camera- because I enjoyed it.  I specifically love maternity and newborns, and I will continue to grow my business in that specific area. Photography is something that relaxes me, something that I find joy in, and it serves as a way for me to bless others. I have to keep it that way or else I’ll get burnt out and end up disliking it. And I don’t want that to happen! But with that said, I still have to keep it in it’s place. My time and attention will be more purposeful this year.. spending more time reading my bible and pursuing God, making my husband a top priority, enjoying my kids and giving them more undivided attention, and learning to enjoy being still. Not making lists, not getting overwhelmed by tasks…

Just. Being. Still.

Like a brand new, sleeping baby =)

And with that- I start my new year!